TV Guide glue
Cough Irritant Tobacco--> Pearls/clam
Gasoline iridescent rainbows
distort the way we see the world.
***
I know I am fucked up. I seek others whose problems stew beneath the surface- superficial. People who aren't constantly smiling and seeking the attention of the opposite sex. I've become celibate partly due to self-disgust and partly due to a disgust of others. 'Caio' (his name means to fall), who everyone simply called Moses because of his long beard is the first person besides Matt, who is in a loveless relationship, who appeals to me. I am a bit nervous to speak with him for a couple of reasons. One being that any man I am attracted to- I do not feel worthy of, and also because he is so attractive and I believe intelligent. I also lack the Portuguese and struggle to express any thought beyond polite conversation, but somehow I manged to speak with Caio (1) and I am determined to speak with Caio (2), the weary wanderer, the loner with piercing blue eyes that beg to be explored.
Cough Irritant Tobacco--> Pearls/clam
Gasoline iridescent rainbows
distort the way we see the world.
***
I know I am fucked up. I seek others whose problems stew beneath the surface- superficial. People who aren't constantly smiling and seeking the attention of the opposite sex. I've become celibate partly due to self-disgust and partly due to a disgust of others. 'Caio' (his name means to fall), who everyone simply called Moses because of his long beard is the first person besides Matt, who is in a loveless relationship, who appeals to me. I am a bit nervous to speak with him for a couple of reasons. One being that any man I am attracted to- I do not feel worthy of, and also because he is so attractive and I believe intelligent. I also lack the Portuguese and struggle to express any thought beyond polite conversation, but somehow I manged to speak with Caio (1) and I am determined to speak with Caio (2), the weary wanderer, the loner with piercing blue eyes that beg to be explored.
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